which means he just kind of sits there in shock for a second as it finally sinks in. oh. oh wow. he really should have just told saix he wasn't dying. ]
[ and the more he thinks about it, the more flustered and lost he feels. ]
Since when? [ oh, my god. at least he didn't blurt out the "why" he was thinking of. he waves that off ] I don't-- never mind, you don't gotta tell me that.
[ a long time, actually, probably longer than even he himself recognized. saix's pause probably tells axel that, even if he won't say as much as words. his feelings were twisted up into bitterness and jealousy -- all while he believed he didn't have any. ]
[ lea should have said why, then at least he could make a bad joke!! ]
It doesn't matter. I'm not....
[ himself, still. and lea's moved on. he's assuming that from that, like, brief ust he had with emma in trial. ]
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[ but he is, currently jealous, again. ]
But you are moving on.
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"Moving on"? What are you even talking about?
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Nevermind. It's pointless now, anyway.
[ because he's clearly, dying, tomorrow, ]
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[ since he is. dying. tomorrow.
this is really fucked up to do ]
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[ that's nice and vague ]
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Do you really want to know?
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You know I do.
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What would you have done if I wasn't cursed, two weeks ago?
[ not that it matters now bc he's definitely dying for realsies tomorrow ]
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... What do you mean?
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If it hadn't been because of the curse.
[ does he have to spell it out!!! cause if lea doesn't get it he's not going to ]
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which means he just kind of sits there in shock for a second as it finally sinks in. oh. oh wow. he really should have just told saix he wasn't dying. ]
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(does that mean... isa...?)
so instead he blurts out the first thing that comes to mind: ]
Well, it would've still been pretty awful timing.
[ and then he looks away because. nailed it. wow. ]
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It wasn't exactly my choice. I did.... I knew you were going to blame yourself for Mary, so I wanted to do something. But then it was out of my hands.
[ and onto his lips ig!!!! but he's also looking away, time for mcfucking awkwardness to return ]
Well, it doesn't matter now.
[ it's too late ]
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So, you... Isa, you're serious about this?
[ DOES HE THINK HE'S GONNA SAY "NAH BRO IT'S A PRANK, NO HOMO" ]
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Do you think I'd joke about this, Lea?
[ even his sense of humor isn't that bad ]
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[ and the more he thinks about it, the more flustered and lost he feels. ]
Since when? [ oh, my god. at least he didn't blurt out the "why" he was thinking of. he waves that off ] I don't-- never mind, you don't gotta tell me that.
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[ lea should have said why, then at least he could make a bad joke!! ]
It doesn't matter. I'm not....
[ himself, still. and lea's moved on. he's assuming that from that, like, brief ust he had with emma in trial. ]
It's irrelevant now. It all is.
[ dead bitch waaaalking ]
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[ not only because saix is not going to die (really should've told him that) but because... he...
he doesn't know what to feel about this. ]
I never thought about that stuff. With-- anyone.
[ so isa doesn't think it was about him, specifically. ]
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I know.
[ he lets out a noise that's like, almost a laugh. ]
I didn't either. ... Except for you.
[ gay. ]
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... I'm sorry.
[ for what? his taste? he doesn't elaborate so let's all assume that's what he's apologizing for ]
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[ but yeah that's what it is. ]
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[ he'd never thought about it before, but he sure is now. ]