catchall for shess

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[leaberator]

Death's not all that scary.

[ it's fatalistic, but he doesn't extrapolate on it. he doesn't want to die, but there are worst things.

which are not hisoka he's not even thinking about that ]

I don't know. I keep thinking... this can't be our only option. Sacrificing each other for the greater good while the darkness plays puppets with us? Hard pass.

[nonbelligerent]

[fatalistic or not, shess won't disagree with that.]

It does seem as though that path leads to little but misery.

[leaberator]

... And it's not a solution.

[ the way "darkness" spoke, like they'd done it before and would do it again... would it even be deterred by what's about to happen? ]

[nonbelligerent]

No, it's not. It's only eliminating symptoms.

[leaberator]

[ the sigh that leaves him is reluctant ]

... I know the answer to "what do we do" is "try and work out a real solution", but I kinda want to just tell the universe to take a hike right now.

[ h...humor? this is coping. ]

[nonbelligerent]

[he lets out a small smile at that.]

A very fair response.

[leaberator]

Guess you got the answer to your question from yesterday, though.

[ it's as close to he gets to apologizing, though honestly he should've picked more of a fight with milla? he still believes this. ]

[nonbelligerent]

[...]

While I'm not thrilled over what happened, I don't blame you for your decision.

[leaberator]

Yeah? Why not?

[nonbelligerent]

You wanted to protect someone you cared about. It's not as if I don't understand that.

Or is that an inaccurate interpretation?

[leaberator]

I guess not.

[ he's just not very good at it. but that's too sad sack a thought to share, so he just. sighs. ]

I don't know if I did the right thing, though.

[ in the end, did he just make it more difficult for mary? ]

[nonbelligerent]

[...]

I cannot speak for Mary, of course... but if I were in her position, I think I would appreciate knowing that someone cared enough to defend me.

[leaberator]

... Yeah. You're probably right.

[ she didn't exactly have the easiest life ]

[nonbelligerent]

[he's silent again for a moment.]

This entire thing really does strike a chord for you, doesn't it? And those from your world.

[leaberator]

... We kinda made it obvious, huh?

[ it's a bit sheepish. it's hard to explain... or even talk about, but it's not like he can stay mum about all of it. ]

That kind of darkness... I don't know if it's the same, exactly, but we've got something similar to it back there.

[nonbelligerent]

The few of you did seem to react particularly strongly to Mary's dilemma, even before the "darkness" revealed itself.

[leaberator]

... That's not really my story to tell.

[ even if xion implied it was, in a way. ]

[nonbelligerent]

Of course. What is, if you don't mind me asking?

[leaberator]

... A long story that involves a lot of existential questions, mostly.

[nonbelligerent]

Is that why you have two names?

[leaberator]

[ ... he huffs out a laugh ]

I gotta up my game, man. I've lost my touch for speaking with people who're clever.

[ it's very easy to hide things from people when they aren't written down anywhere, also. ]

Yeah. That's why.

[nonbelligerent]

Perhaps it was unfair for the scrolls to advertise that so easily.

[leaberator]

Don't think the scrolls really care that much about advertising our dirty little secrets.

[ ... ]

All four of us who came here from the same place-- we're all from a different time, y'know? I'm the furthest ahead of all of us. It's pretty weird.

[nonbelligerent]

Different time? Really?

[universe, why would you do that.]

[leaberator]

Yeah. At most, it's a couple of months, so maybe it all seemed close enough for the "universe", but... A lot happened in that time.