catchall for emma

[leaberator]

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[leaberator]

[ he does not, actually, know the drill at all. but he doesn't say that. ]

... You couldn't have known something would happen.

[foodbin]

No, but I could have at least made an effort.

[She shakes her head.]

...I guess it doesn't matter anymore.

[leaberator]

... If there's one thing I know, it's that you can't erase the mistakes you've made in the past. You can make up for them. That's pretty much all there is to do.

[ he leans down to kiss her forehead ]

But I'm sure she knew you cared about her.

[foodbin]

...Right. And I went on to do an awesome job at that.

[She gives his hand a squeeze.]

But - thank you. What about you...?

[leaberator]

You're doing alright now.

[ but her question gives him pause and he blinks ]

What about me?

[foodbin]

The... You know.

[She gestures to where the boggart was a few minutes ago.]

[leaberator]

...What, the-- Xion? That's not exactly a big surprise.

[foodbin]

No, I know, but...

[it was probably still upsetting.]

[leaberator]

... It's fine. Nothing my own brain hasn't conjured up a million times in this place.

[foodbin]

[As she gives his hand a squeeze:]

Does that really make it fine...?

[leaberator]

Sure. What's a little trauma between friends?

[foodbin]

[After a few moments:]

Right. Well, if you ever wanted to talk about it... You know.

[leaberator]

[ ... he raises her hand to kiss her knuckles ]

Thanks. But there's not much to talk about.

[foodbin]

You say that, but...

[After a moment:]

Sorry. I won't push.

[leaberator]

... Nah, it's fine. You can push. [ he knows he doesn't exactly talk about-- anything, without that. ] I just don't know what to say about it.

[foodbin]

How you're feeling, maybe?

[leaberator]

... About that? A little tired, I guess.

[ xion has been through enough the last week ]

[foodbin]

Tired of seeing her like that...?

[leaberator]

... Tired of being afraid of what'll happen if it comes true.

[foodbin]

[She looks down at his hand, giving it a small squeeze.]

You know that she's safe now, right? [As safe as any of them are, at least, but.] I doubt it's going to hit her twice.

[leaberator]

Yeah... that's not what I'm worried about. [ he shakes his head a bit ] But you're right. She's as safe as we get here.

[foodbin]

Then what is it? I know you've mentioned there's stuff going on back home, but...

[only in fairly vague terms.]

[leaberator]

[ he looks away ]

... The last time Xion died, I forgot her.

[foodbin]

...How?

[She knows him well enough to know that wouldn't happen normally.]

[leaberator]

It's... The way she was made, I guess. I don't wanna get into it.

[ because it's long and complicated, but also because-- it's xion's story a lot more than his. ]

But because of that, I couldn't remember her until she was back and staring me right in the face. I never... wanna forget like that again.