catchall for emma

[leaberator]

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[leaberator]

[ ........ god. the joke doesn't quite land, and he just looks away guiltily at the first part. after a while of uncomfortable silence he sighs ]

I like you, Emma. I do. [ it's. a lot more certain than he'd recently been, at least, though he still seems reluctant ] But... How much do we really know about each other? [ he grimaces, a bit, like that's not quite the wording he wanted, but doesn't clarify ]

[foodbin]

...Not too much, I guess.

[But that's all she says before she lets him go on.]

[leaberator]

... Fact is, I dunno if I'd even be able to manage a relationship. I haven't exactly had a winning streak with friendship, for a start. And... that stuff's more serious.

[foodbin]

...I understand if you don't want to.

[But.]

If you want to try and see how it feels - I won't be upset if it doesn't work out.

[leaberator]

I want to. That's not what I'm saying.

[ ah. he plays a little with his shirt, idly ]

The whole talking thing? I'm great at that. I... ain't so good at being open and honest. Which is kind of a big deal in stuff like this. [ ... ] And I'm pretty sure you're not the greatest at it, either.

[foodbin]

[After a moment, she nods.]

Right. I get it. [...] I appreciate you talking to me about it.

[leaberator]

[ it's literally killing him? ]

You should. I'm getting hives. [ he's ruining his own moment with a joke. wow. ]

[foodbin]

[She laughs, despite herself.]

I'll get the Benadryl. [...] If things ever change, then - you know where to find me.

[leaberator]

[ ... ]

I do. I did. [ he. stays quiet, a little ] I... What I was trying to say is I'm nervous. For a buncha reasons. But if you're okay with it, I'm... [ he laughs at himself ] Well, if there's a baby steps version to relationships, I'm kinda willing to try.

[foodbin]

[...After a moment, she links her fingers through his, smiling a little bit brighter.]

Okay. I'd like that.

[leaberator]

[ he holds her hand back, and, after a second: ]

Sorry about the terrible timing. I was kinda waiting for the week to end.

[ so hisoka would get. none of this. but now he could LITERALLY die in two days, oops ]

[foodbin]

...No, it's okay. I'm glad you said something.

[But...]

Everything's going to turn out alright. I'll make sure of it.

[leaberator]

... I'm not the only one I'm worried about, y'know.

[ it's idle, and he's paying more attention to their held hands, rubbing his thumb on emma's skin ]

[foodbin]

[She shakes her head.]

I'm not the one without a partner.

[leaberator]

[ he huffs out a laugh ]

You too, yeah. But I meant... That's two weeks now, for Saïx.

[foodbin]

...Right.

[Hm.]

Well - if we play our cards right, we can make sure everyone is okay, right?

[leaberator]

... Yeah. You're right.

[ he brings her hand up to kiss it, lightly ]

Sorry. My head's all over the place.

[foodbin]

...I think most people would feel the same.

[She smiles, though, as her hand tightens around his.]

[leaberator]

No kidding. The more time I spend in this place, the more I'm convinced it was designed to make my brain sweat.

[foodbin]

[She laughs, but...]

Now that he’s gone, do you see a reason not to tell people? I mean, not that we need to make a huge announcement, but - not hiding it.

[leaberator]

[ ....... hhhhhhhh ]

... There's-- a few people that should hear it from me, first.

[foodbin]

...Okay. But if you’re uncomfortable with it, you don’t have to.

[leaberator]

... I don't wanna hide it? I dunno how okay I'd be with PDA, but-- whatever we do, they deserve to hear it from me rather than learn from someone else.

[foodbin]

[She nods.]

Just let me know.

[leaberator]

Yeah.

[ ... ]

Try not to ogle me during trial too much this time. We got work to do.