catchall for lili

[leaberator]

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week 3, monday

[coastal]

What - did something new happen? Do you have a new set of problems?

[what's the tea]

[leaberator]

[ he wishes to die is the tea ]

I'm not gonna-- no, nothing happened.

[ this is entirely believable considering he's looking everywhere but at her ]

[coastal]

Do I need to say again that you're a poor liar?

[she sighs and crosses her arms]

Was it after the trial? Yesterday?

[leaberator]

[ she sucks? ]

After the trial, I guess? Look, it really doesn't matter. It's got nothing to do with... [ he waves a hand vaguely ] With anything.

[coastal]

[she gestures to the book]

It's still bothering you, so it matters.

Emma found me after trial anyway, so there's no point in me pretending that I'm not invested.

[leaberator]

[

he hits his face lightly with the book ]

You talked about it with her, too?

[coastal]

I said she found me - why would I have a reason to deny a conversation? That would be stupid, when she already knows I know.

[presumably because of axel???

anyway]

At least I didn't go to find Saix.

[lili,]

[leaberator]

[




what ]

How do you know about that?

[coastal]

Ah, so it was him.

I wasn't sure if he was just being weird about a friend, but guess not.

[leaberator]

[ gah. gah! he throws a hand up in the air ]

He's always being weird about a friend, that wasn't anything new.

[coastal]

So have you just never held hands with anyone else in front of him?

[leaberator]

Why would I have held hands in front of him before?

[ just. genuinely. why ]

[coastal]

Oh right - never dated.

[ . . . ]

No wonder you went looking for a book.

So did something happen with him?

[leaberator]

Let the book go, Lili.

[ he's. sulky. but... ]

Sort of? No. He just-- said stuff. And I... I didn't know?

[coastal]

[he's so sulky

lili will actually reach out to pat his shoulder]

That's not your fault.

Did he confess feelings for you?

[gay! drama!]

[leaberator]

[ yeah because axel didn't bother telling him he wasn't dying and he wanted him to be more honest and so he? did it to himself?

he says none of that ]

...Kinda. But it's...

[coastal]

... it's?

[she'll wait

but also tilt her head]

... I won't tell anyone. Not Saix or Emma. If you're worried about that.

[leaberator]

... It's complicated.

[ that's obviously not what she wants to hear, but it is what he was going to say, so there's a pause ]

You haven't talked to him, right? In general.

[coastal]

We complain about Hisoka.

[easily]

I don't know much about him... but I find him to be one of the less aggravating people here.

[lili at least doesn't hate him???]

[leaberator]

[ god, why does that make him laugh. ]

Yeah... he's not so bad when he's not pretending to still be the worst.

[ bit. fond, there. ]

[coastal]

He's tried to help me a few times... without going out of his way to be confounding.

[because hisoka has helped lili too, he's just been an asshole after too]

You seem very familiar with each other.

[leaberator]

[ ....... it takes a while for him to say it, but he admits: ]

We've known each other since we were kids.

[ he looks a bit sad about it ]

[coastal]

[ . . . . she blinks and

if it were someone a little more tactful, maybe they would be able to approach the subject more delicately. but it's lili, so she's mostly just confused when she asks]

... is there a reason why you don't sound happy to reminisce about it?

[leaberator]

[ -- it's a good thing she does, because he laughs, a bit wry ]

A lot of stuff happened since then. Sometimes that makes it hard to remember the good parts. [ he waves a hand, vaguely ] Like I said. It's complicated.

[coastal]

... I suppose the longer you've known someone, the more difficult it can be to reconcile your history together.

[she can't imagine what it's like, really, but....]

Does it complicate how you feel about him, too?