Yeah. 'Course I am. I haven't given up on bringing everyone back.
[ well. he could do without hisoka, but. he pauses, clearly hesitating. He hadn't started off this conversation thinking he'd share this, but if it makes her feel better...? ]
To tell you the truth... part of the reason Shess defended me so much might be because I'm the one behind the item stuff we get.
[the truth is that it's part of the reason why she was mad at him
because if he does reckless things, it makes it harder to trust him. it ruins his reputation. it puts him in danger. they're all things that lili didn't want to care about, once she found out about mary - but she still does. because she can't kill her heart quite the same way that others can.]
I can't speak for him...
But don't just write the idea off so quickly or I'll get mad. [ . . . ] Again.
I'm not writing it off! [ the concept is, as always, mildly distressing, but it's not exactly new, the idea that people look to him for things. but. ] But it's... Shess.
[ it's not like lea doesn't know shess is a lot more competent than he is!!! ]
[ . . . okay, she'll accept that answer. she watches him a bit warily still, but she's at least less obviously mad than when this conversation started]
... I'll be watching, so don't disappoint me again.
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[ well. he could do without hisoka, but. he pauses, clearly hesitating. He hadn't started off this conversation thinking he'd share this, but if it makes her feel better...? ]
To tell you the truth... part of the reason Shess defended me so much might be because I'm the one behind the item stuff we get.
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You're - what?
[god dammit zia]
So the foods...?
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[ he shrugs ]
It's a random choice every week, I've just lucked out for the most part.
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[ . . . ugh. she frowns a little bit]
I can understand that too, then. At least you've been using everything you've gotten to try to aid others....
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[ this is clearly not what this is about ]
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[that was axel's doing]
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[she doesn't look convinced but oh well]
... well - thank you for your help anyway.
I don't know if that's entirely the reason why Shess defends you so much but... it is admittedly a good one....
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[ he shrugs a little ]
It might not be the whole reason, but it's gotta be a big part of it.
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[because they're not friends? they're totally not friends anymore.]
But I don't think you realize how many people actually look to you for things... so do us all a favor and open up your eyes a little when you can.
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And you think Shess is one of those? C'mon.
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because if he does reckless things, it makes it harder to trust him. it ruins his reputation. it puts him in danger. they're all things that lili didn't want to care about, once she found out about mary - but she still does. because she can't kill her heart quite the same way that others can.]
I can't speak for him...
But don't just write the idea off so quickly or I'll get mad. [ . . . ] Again.
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[ it's not like lea doesn't know shess is a lot more competent than he is!!! ]
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I'm not going to pretend to understand your relationship [because lili doesn't understand anything] but that's what I think.
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[ anyway. ]
We're friends. [ .....he thinks ]
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[even though kara hates it.
but....]
... well, it's good for you to have an ally who can vouch for you, I guess.
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[ . . . okay, she'll accept that answer. she watches him a bit warily still, but she's at least less obviously mad than when this conversation started]
... I'll be watching, so don't disappoint me again.
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Yeah. Alright. I'll do my best not to. ... Thanks, Lili.