if it were someone a little more tactful, maybe they would be able to approach the subject more delicately. but it's lili, so she's mostly just confused when she asks]
... is there a reason why you don't sound happy to reminisce about it?
[ -- it's a good thing she does, because he laughs, a bit wry ]
A lot of stuff happened since then. Sometimes that makes it hard to remember the good parts. [ he waves a hand, vaguely ] Like I said. It's complicated.
[ look axel's trying to figure out a way to word it that doesn't involve going into their involved history and also doesn't just call him a jealous little bitch ]
Okay, take this case for example. Yeah, it's relevant to me, but it's not just my secret, right? It's Saïx's, too. He probably doesn't want everybody knowing his feelings.
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[ that's obviously not what she wants to hear, but it is what he was going to say, so there's a pause ]
You haven't talked to him, right? In general.
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[easily]
I don't know much about him... but I find him to be one of the less aggravating people here.
[lili at least doesn't hate him???]
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Yeah... he's not so bad when he's not pretending to still be the worst.
[ bit. fond, there. ]
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[because hisoka has helped lili too, he's just been an asshole after too]
You seem very familiar with each other.
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We've known each other since we were kids.
[ he looks a bit sad about it ]
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if it were someone a little more tactful, maybe they would be able to approach the subject more delicately. but it's lili, so she's mostly just confused when she asks]
... is there a reason why you don't sound happy to reminisce about it?
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A lot of stuff happened since then. Sometimes that makes it hard to remember the good parts. [ he waves a hand, vaguely ] Like I said. It's complicated.
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[she can't imagine what it's like, really, but....]
Does it complicate how you feel about him, too?
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Sometimes? 'Course, if I ever said anything like that to him, he'd prolly just think I hated him.
[ the dumb bitch. ]
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Is he that sensitive?
[lili, internally: men.]
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Nah, that's not... quite right. Isa's... he's kinda... he tends to lash out when he's insecure and assumes the worst?
[ he sounds as if he's considering it himself aaaand didn't even notice he called him isa, huh ]
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[anyway that still sounds
sensitive to her, axel!!!!!]
Then just be direct to keep him from assuming anything stupid.
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[ look axel's trying to figure out a way to word it that doesn't involve going into their involved history and also doesn't just call him a jealous little bitch ]
What am I telling him in this scenario, exactly?
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just kidding he wouldn't say anyway so he shakes his head ]
Yeah, that'd be 'cause I don't even wanna talk about this in the first place. [ ... ] Isn't him liking me complicated enough already?
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So you have two people who like you.... It's true that I'm not envious.
[she'll be honest
but also]
Does Emma know about Saix?
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I'm not telling.
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Is there a reason why not?
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[THE MOST
OBVIOUS FACT TO LILI]
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Not all secrets are bad.
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???????
???????????]
... I don't understand.
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Okay, take this case for example. Yeah, it's relevant to me, but it's not just my secret, right? It's Saïx's, too. He probably doesn't want everybody knowing his feelings.
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[namine spoke up about that too and lili is still feeling guilty over it but.]
She trusts you, and you didn't say no to her. Maybe you're uncertain on your own, but the problem is worse now, isn't it?
But you can't be mindful of her feelings while still keeping her in the dark.
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he sighs out, slow ]
... Look, things are already complicated enough. That'd just make it worse. I wanna figure myself out, first.
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